WHY the younger generation(we) turn to the Internet

This is something that happened to me quite recently, and if I don’t talk about it, I’ll start a new year conflicted.



If you’ve read any of my older posts, you know that I had to do a course in Computer Engineering and write those exams because of the incompetence of certain people. Also I study French and I had my C1 DALF exam in November.

I’ve always been fascinated by foreign languages and when I got the chance to learn French during form 1 at Kutama College, I was over the moon. Unfortunately, due to unforeseen circumstances, I had to leave the school. When I got the chance to learn French again, I jumped at the opportunity. I’d like to return to Kutama, maybe teach French for a bit. Anyway, I digress….

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Why Can I Never Be Happy? 

This is a question that has become common place for me. Why? I don’t know.

It seems anytime I have a modicum of happiness, something or someone always takes that away.

It all started when I was 10, when my dad passed. Now it’s very hard to lose a parent at that age. Thinking about him still brings me to tears. Which is worsened with everyone with fathers who don’t even care about them.

Ever since then any glimmer of hope has been snatched from me just when I thought it could actually be getting better.

And now I have reached my limit, I can’t take anymore of this pain, this hurt.

Why should I be hopeful when nothing ever works out for me? When something always has to interfere with anything I try. It’s really difficult to keep a strong composure when your crushed over and over again.

Sometimes I feel like crying, but I can’t, cause apparently “boys don’t cry“. We are always supposed to be strong. But how can I be strong when all I know is disappointment, struggle and pain?

I am human too, I have feelings too. I don’t show them because over the years I’ve come to realise that how I feel is always neglected. Whenever I do, I’m said to be whining. So I always suffer silently.

Then there’s the parent who won’t let me grow up. I understand every parent wants to protect their child, but this is just too much. I can’t enjoy time with my friends because there’ll always be that call ; “Where are? Who are you with? What are you doing?“…. I’m 24 for heaven’s sake! Let me live my life, make my mistakes, find my own way through this journey called life. For how long exactly do you expect to keep codling me? When I marry, will you still be doing this?

And what has really brought about this post is I had plans with someone very special to me, plans we prepared weeks prior, and with one simple action, you mess everything up for me. Basically, what I want, what I desire is of no importance, only your plans matter. How much more of this I can take, I honestly do not know….

But even through all of this, I still I try. Even when I have no hope. There’s only one thing that drives me to never give up. It’s not this parent, definitely not. It’s not family either, nor is it friends.

What drives me is someone, the only person who has treated me like a human, like an equal. The only person in this universe who truly understands me.

For this person and this person alone, I’ll keep trying. Despite all I’ve gone through. And today, more than any other day, I am so very sorry to her. I will have to make it up to her, for days to come. I only hope she will forgive me and not think I’m unreliable….

My life would be so much different if my dad was alive. I miss you dad, wish you were here. I really need you, now more than ever.

Deep from a place of anguish…


Television Today: A Detriment To Our Children’s Intellect

A young child is very impressionable and whatever you show them will stick more than anything they may learn later on…

I started thinking about this as I noticed my niece glued to the TV. Curious as to what had her so zoned out I went to take a look, what I saw not only surprised me, it confused and worried me.

I would like to think that we all watched the cartoons at some point in our childhood. I remember the cartoons I used to watch, they kept me engaged, wanting to know what happens next. This is is because they had an actual plot you could follow. Even other children’s programs always imparted some type of a lesson.

Visionaries – A show I used to watch

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My Limericks

A limerick is a form of poetry, often humorous and sometimes obscene, in five-line, predominantly anapestic meter with a strict rhyme scheme of AABBA, in which the first, second and fifth line rhyme, while the third and fourth lines are shorter and share a different rhyme.

This is another form of poetry I discovered earlier this year.

I’ll also be posting some of these here too.

Here’s my Limerick:

I thought that I would write cleverly.

Infuse these words with all my energy.

But I didn’t know how.

But then I was like wow.

I’ll just weave these words expertly.


My Haikus

A haiku is a very short form of Japanese poetry. It is typically characterized by three qualities:

  1. The essence of haiku is “cutting” (kiru). This is often represented by the juxtaposition of two images or ideas and a kireji (“cutting word”) between them, a kind of verbal punctuation mark which signals the moment of separation and colours the manner in which the juxtaposed elements are related.
  2. Traditional haiku consist of 17 on (also known as morae though often loosely translated as “syllables“), in three phrases of 5, 7, and 5 on, respectively. (An alternative form of haiku consists of 11 on in three phrases of 3, 5, and 3 on, respectively.)
  3. A kigo (seasonal reference), usually drawn from a saijiki, an extensive but defined list of such terms.

So after that brief explanation.

This is a form of expression I found out some years ago. Usually I write my haikus on Twitter Me on Twitter

I’m going to be posting some here as well.

So here goes:

I sit here silent.

Lost in much contemplation.

Many thoughts in my mind.


Mind of A Chess Player (I Think Differently)

I play chess, and as a chess player I am conditioned to think several moves ahead, to calculate all possible outcomes and have a contingency for each and every one.

This, however, is not how most people think. Most people think in the right now, within this moment only. This, in my opinion, is a problem, and here’s why I think so….

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